Today was not a very good day for me. One would have thought that yesterday would have been the bad day considering it was, afterall, friday the 13th, but today the 14th, suppositely a lucky number for me (pardon all that superstitions) was worst.

I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch today but he stood me up. Yes, laugh, because natalie got stood up. And you don't have to hide it too, because I know you enjoy laughing at me. Makes me wonder if some people come to my blog just to laugh at my misery, but that is another story.

Normal people have their lunches at say, 12 or 1pm? Or if later, at 2 or 3pm? 3pm would be considered the latest already considering dinner is at 6pm. This friend of mine did not bother to tell me he would be late. He did not even bother to give me any notice of what time he was coming. I waited until 330 before I realised how stupid it was. And if you thought I did not call, I did. But there was no answer. Nor a call back.

You know what actually hurts more then angers me? It's the fact that just the night before he knew that I was having gastric problems again and yet he did not give two hoots about how not eating aggravated my gastric problem when he was the one to ask me to lunch.

And yes, in case you want to laugh again, I had gastric pains today too, thanks to a certain someone.

This incident certainly reminded me of another missed appointment where the guy in question totally did not answer any calls or messages and only messaged me 3 days later to tell me that he had not dared to meet me that day because he was afraid he would fall for me again.

'Again' was because he was an ex whom I thought had become a good friend even after the break up 4 years ago. It seemed that all of a sudden, he just thought he might like me again. Are you kidding me?! What is there to like about me when it seems I piss everyone off?!

Well, in the end, even at 440pm there was no call or message from him, the lunching companion, (the nerves of that guy!) so I left for my grandma's place with my family. And that is sadly not the end of the day.

When we left my grandma's place later, my elder sister's boyfriend had come to pick her up to go for mango ice and suppositely, my younger sister was going along. Strangely I never heard anything about that. The minute I said I wanted to go too, my younger sister actually said, "If she go I don't want to go already."

This coming from the sister I pampered so much.

Would anyone understand that feeling? It was as though I had been slapped across the face by her at least 3 times.

I really wonder if I am going wrong even at home when my own sister cannot even stand to go out with me because I know my social life sucks, but used to think family life was okay if not peaceful.

And even till now, not a word of apology from the missing lunch partner. Oh just give me a break already!

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Don't fake concern when you don't even care that you caused my pain.