Guess what somebody got me for a birthday present? It came later then most but.... It's what I've wanted for a long time! I have a hamster!~ Thanks to freddy for taking the effort to celebrate my birthday with me yesterday also even if it was a little later lol.

The dwarf hamster is a cute little thing which is so docile unlike most I've seen in past. (It doesn't bite when first accounted lol!) And it loves to run in the wheel! Heee... So cute...

I haven't figure out a name for it (it's a she) but I was thinking... Strawberry? LOL. I think I shall stick to that until I find another name.

Anyway, after letting Strawberry adapt to her new home, we went to east coast for a (very) late dinner and then he surprised me with a cake!

Omg! Fourth one! Ahhh! This year's birthday is great! Lol!~ ^^

Although somewhat messy with all those humongous ants (eeks!) we handled okay haha...

Strawberry's sleeping now so I can't take pics of her to put up but I'll do it soon! Haha.. In a good mood now... Hope to get some stuff for her later. =D

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Something's going on...

Celebrated my birthday yesterday with 3 cakes! It was really a pleasant surprise especially when one of the cakes was delivered to my place. (Thanks jameson~)

I still recall being not so pleasantly surprised when I first received the cake because the name of sender stated on the invoice was a "James" and I did not know any! Yet that person knew my birthday, handphone number and *gasp* address!

Only much later at night was it revealed that jameson was the one who had sent the cake and gotten my address from my elder sister. Made me think so hard for so long lol... I nearly thought I must have somehow forgotten some important james and felt so guilty! >.<

Must really complain about the shop ar... Sender's name also can write wrong.. Tsk tsk... But the cake was really pretty and tasted good too as declared by my younger sister haha.

Anyway, I spend the first half of the day lazing in bed (somewhat) while the start of a flu bothered me. Went to work in the afternoon and then went for dinner with a few of my collegues. They got me a cheesecake from Goodwood Hotel! Very pretty cake woor...

Sadly, the restaurant we went to, "NYDC" did not allowed the consumption of outside food so we had to make do with just singing the birthday song and pretending to cut the cake. (No eating!) Lolz, my collegues were all so shy about singing the song. =.=||

But thank you Jolynn, Jeffry and Poh!~ I had lots of fun hehe~ And Pooh... You owe me dinner lol! =P

After dinner, I reached home at around 11pm where my family proceeded to celebrate with me too. (Sorry I was so late =X) Haha, I got to make 3 wishes! =D I know that's playing cheat but... Who cares! =P

Here's a picture of the 3 cakes~

 Haha very nice looking hor? Doesn't it make you hungry? Lol.. 1st one is from The Patissier (Jameson), 2nd is from Bengawang Solo~(the family) and the last one is from Goodwood Hotel (collegues).

What disappoints me is that I currently have the flu and can't taste a thing to save my life! >.< So I kinda wasted the 3 slices of cake but I'm waiting to get better so I can eat them soon! Hope they don't spoil before I'm well. =X

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Anyway I got chased home from work today because of my terrible flu. I was sneezing and coughing all over the place lol, must have scared many of the engineers haha~

Saw a doctor who gave me 2 days mc but the aunty at the office wants me to go back tomorrow because she will be on leave both tomorrow and friday! >.< Why like that one...

But I'll see how I guess.. I feel bad for my collegue who has to handle the work everytime I'm sick (Which seems to be alot!) and so if I feel better tomorrow I guess I'll go.

I still have many things to say but I think I'll stop for now..

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It hurts to know you nearly hit me.

Seems like the heavens above do not want me to go cycling. Today was the N-thed time that something happened to prevent it from happening. Today's special obstacle was... Rain. Damn it.

Was supposed to go cycling with gary, ian and melvin but in the end, we went KTV instead, supposingly to celebrate my birthday.

But I had a sore throat (and still do) and ended up singing horribly until I got so annoyed with myself I ejected all my favourite songs in favor of new songs of which I did not really know to lyrics to. Lolz, at least I've never heard myself sing them and so was not as annoyed.  

Gary left just before KTV ended (how could you...) and the remainding 3 of us went for dinner at The Manhattan Fish Market at PS. But I have to say, the food is waaaay below standard already. Guess I can no longer go there anymore.

After a huge dinner with lots of quick chomping (Hey, I'm eating with 2 guys, if I don't chomp, there'll be nothing left to chomp on! Lol!) we headed to TCC downstairs for dessert (yes we are pigs =P). At least TCC's standard is maintaining...

Anyway, overall the day was fun. But I still want to go cycling! *Grrr...*

Thanks for the company though guys! =D

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Selfishly... Denied...

Haha I just redid my kissing purity test and it seems my results are still the same.

Also did a new test on how good a kisser am I, and what do you know.. Lol... But only people whom I've kissed before would know the truth wouldn't they? =P

Went to collect some loots yesterday from Snow (thanks again girl!) and had dinner with some of SLS girls.

After dinner we shopped alittle(??) lol, and I got myself a top from U2 as well as a really pretty dress of which its picture I'll post up when I collect it; the last one was only available at another outlet so I had it reserved for me hehe.  

I just couldn't resist! But don't know when I can wear it considering I never go out to special places anymore... Hm... Wonder if I should wear it next tuesday? ^^

Anyway, will be heading down to bugis to meet the girls for a steamboat pig out session. Not much of an appetite now though... Hope it'll get better later... Something's been on my mind these days sigh...

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Passion or delusion? Which works?

It seems so hard for some people to understand, that not everybody in this world is rich. To them, to be "poor" means you can at least afford a university education, drive a basic toyota and live in a 4 room flat.

Someone asked me if I was planning on getting a degree and I told that person that yes, I was, but in a few years time because I did not have the money now.

He/She asked if my parents were not going to pay for me? To which I replied that not everybody is rich. He/She actually said that he/she was not rich too. 

That person then asked me why didn't I borrow a study loan from the bank first, because isn't that what most people are doing nowadays? To which I replied that I still had to eat when I was studying didn't I?

One thing to note for people who don't know, is that the bank will only loan you 80% of your school fees which mean that you will have to come up with the remaining 20% as well as your other daily expenses.

He/She then asked the ultimate question, why didn't I just borrow from my parents then? Just pay them back once I come out to work, isn't that easier?

This is really the most ridiculous question I keep hearing from people who have just asked the above questions.

Did I not just say that not everybody is rich? If it were that easy, why wouldn't my parents just pay for me first? If it were that easy, wouldn't I already be studying now?

Not everybody is rich enough to go to U, and what annoys me to no end is how some people can so niavely think that it is possible.

So, I am not rich, is that a crime? It is really insensitive for people to ask such questions.

For people who might have done the same thing before or who might just ask the same questions in the near future, think again before doing it okay? If someone says they don't have the money at the moment, use your brain and not push the situation. Let the matter rest unless you think you have the money to help your friend.

Now that has really spoilt what's left of my day.

Jeez!

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Pushing limits, such impudence.

Today is a saturday, and I am currently sitting in my office chair, chomping on rather hard nasi lemak rice as I type this.

Yes, I am doing OT.

And no, I doubt you'd like to hear about my rants regarding work lately.

Therefore, there isn't much for me to say, because all I am full of lately, is complains about work and I'm not much fun anymore.

Save me.

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I do have one good thing to mention though, and that is that when my sis came back from LA a couple of days ago, she got me the perfume I've been wanting that you can see in the left corner of my blog.

Yes! Innocent Secret by Thierry Mugler! Exclusively from Victoria Secrets and only available in all places non-asia. I am a happy girl. ^^

A hundred bucks poorer but well worth the price. Yeah!~

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Oh and before I forget, The Covenant (pronounced Cor-Ver-Nan-T thank you, not co-vae-nen-t or cove-nant please.) is not really a nice show.

Handsome casting I must say because Caleb is oh so yummy, and good if not great acting, but terrible pacing and lousy special effects.

The show looked great at the beginning but probably due to lack of time, the storyline moved far to quickly and the story kind of got lost and weak. And what was with all that air shooting?!

Sigh... Not much of an ending too because I can't tell if there will be a part two. Hm... A 5 out of 10; watch it only if you like eye candy (for both male and females, lol.)

DOA and Death Note are much nicer in my opinion. =X

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Oh, carol just smsed me that the shoes from their latest spree are in already.

Yipee! 2 more pairs of shoes to wear! Will be getting them from her tonight, hope they look as great as they do on the webbie. =D

Pretty? ^^

Alright now... Done with my lunch already and back to work for me.

And will someone please just stop ringing the bell?!

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Broken glass my dear, they're never whole again.

Today was not a very good day for me. One would have thought that yesterday would have been the bad day considering it was, afterall, friday the 13th, but today the 14th, suppositely a lucky number for me (pardon all that superstitions) was worst.

I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch today but he stood me up. Yes, laugh, because natalie got stood up. And you don't have to hide it too, because I know you enjoy laughing at me. Makes me wonder if some people come to my blog just to laugh at my misery, but that is another story.

Normal people have their lunches at say, 12 or 1pm? Or if later, at 2 or 3pm? 3pm would be considered the latest already considering dinner is at 6pm. This friend of mine did not bother to tell me he would be late. He did not even bother to give me any notice of what time he was coming. I waited until 330 before I realised how stupid it was. And if you thought I did not call, I did. But there was no answer. Nor a call back.

You know what actually hurts more then angers me? It's the fact that just the night before he knew that I was having gastric problems again and yet he did not give two hoots about how not eating aggravated my gastric problem when he was the one to ask me to lunch.

And yes, in case you want to laugh again, I had gastric pains today too, thanks to a certain someone.

This incident certainly reminded me of another missed appointment where the guy in question totally did not answer any calls or messages and only messaged me 3 days later to tell me that he had not dared to meet me that day because he was afraid he would fall for me again.

'Again' was because he was an ex whom I thought had become a good friend even after the break up 4 years ago. It seemed that all of a sudden, he just thought he might like me again. Are you kidding me?! What is there to like about me when it seems I piss everyone off?!

Well, in the end, even at 440pm there was no call or message from him, the lunching companion, (the nerves of that guy!) so I left for my grandma's place with my family. And that is sadly not the end of the day.

When we left my grandma's place later, my elder sister's boyfriend had come to pick her up to go for mango ice and suppositely, my younger sister was going along. Strangely I never heard anything about that. The minute I said I wanted to go too, my younger sister actually said, "If she go I don't want to go already."

This coming from the sister I pampered so much.

Would anyone understand that feeling? It was as though I had been slapped across the face by her at least 3 times.

I really wonder if I am going wrong even at home when my own sister cannot even stand to go out with me because I know my social life sucks, but used to think family life was okay if not peaceful.

And even till now, not a word of apology from the missing lunch partner. Oh just give me a break already!

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Don't fake concern when you don't even care that you caused my pain.

On a happier note, Happy 18th Birthday xiao mei! Cannot be so naughty anymore ar... Must be guai and study hard ar... *Grinz*

Went for a celebration dinner with the family just now, the food was no longer as good as before. But I guess everything is always changing. The chief must have changed, but people come, people go. *Shrugs*

I plan on taking the family to a sharks fin speciality restaurant that soooomebody once introduced me to. Mummy loves sharks fin and I was planning to bring them there for some time already, so I thought why not just bring them there on my birthday? At least this year will be better spent. =D

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Make believe that heaven's on earth. Not me, not me.

How would you feel if someone hurt you and used you, then bitched about you to all his friends and blamed you as the cause of his troubles, yet out of nowhere calls to apologise for hurting you?

Would you forgive him? Or would you hold a grudge? Would you even think of ways to take revenge?

How would you even know if he means what he says? How do you know if he's not about to turn around and bitch about you yet again? How can you believe when he claims he is sorry?

The answer to all that, is that you don't. You don't know if he is telling the truth. You don't know what he is planning. You don't know if somebody put him up to it for whichever purposes. You just don't.

No one will ever know what other people are thinking, because they can't see into their minds, no matter how well they know a person or think they do.

Just like how no one knew what she was hiding, even as she screamed out her dislikes. No one knew what she might have been thinking, even as she did the things she did. Is she as simple as she looks? As nice as she seems? Or does everyone have on a facade? That no one knows anyone else anymore?

It is amazing how people sometimes try their utmost best to hurt others, to feel a sense of satisfaction when that person falls in pain. What would it do for you if I were hurt? Would my pain give you life?

Some people think that the task is upon themselves to save what's left on the earth, and to bring justice where it should. But how would you know what justice was? Who are you to judge another? Are you clean of all sins on earth? So pure and fair? If it were truly so, then you would not be judging another. Because it is human to fault, and unless you are not one yourself, take a good look at yourself first, for that is who you should be judging first.

How long does it take for some to move on? From facts of life to growing up. Moving on can mean so many thing, but you will ever only know the truth you want to believe.

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Make music, not noise.

Was on the way home today when I heard sirens out of nowhere. A few seconds later, a fire truck (shit, what's the word for it again???) wailed its way pass in a hurry.

At that very moment, as I watched the truck flash by, I had a sudden inexplicable feeling of fear. But from what? I could not tell.

It then occurred to me that perhaps, it could be fear of what the truck was heading towards? Fear of people who could be in danger at that very moment I was about to cross the road home? I wondered if I still had a conscience afterall.

That fear lasted for as long as I heard the sirens.

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My collegue at work is quitting for greener pastures and while I am happy for her for finding a job much more like what she wanted, I am also extremely stressed when I think of what that means.

The same amount of work, if not more, and only one of me left to do it. Of course the boss will hire another helper, but even then, I can't figure out how I'm going to teach the new person. Which, I believe, will be a girl of course. The boss has been trying to outdo another manager in terms of the 'quality' of their staff.

"This is Charlene, my new assistant." (Reading between the lines - "Prettier than yours hor!")

A competitive bunch of guys considering their age. >.<

What's depressing is that with the huge amount of work we have to do everyday, we are still required to serve coffee and tea to clients who drop by. (What am I?! Coffee girl???!!!)

A collegue was telling me about a job prospect in the cosmetic industry which sounds rather tempting... But the location is... Far, far, far away from home. Even worst then now. That's about the only con from what I gathered. >.< Pros include better pay, fixed hours, samples and discounts on cosmetics, hiak hiak~

But of course, I don't mind giving it a try, and if they want me, then I'll think about the travelling time. Lol~

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I went to Bangkok last weekend and took a plane for the first time in my life! Not a fun experience considering the plane is a rickety and small one that shakes like a leaf in the wind. But nevertheless, I enjoyed the scenery from above, both at night and in the day. We were lucky it did not rain during both flights.

Bangkok itself was an experience unlike what I expected. I didn't get to shop enough, of course it was only over the weekend, but still... *Blush* The hotel was terrible, and you don't want to go there. It rained just about every few hours in the time we were there and you can imagine how NOT fun it was walking in the rain and carrying an umbrella while still trying to browse/shop.

The food was alright, but I only really enjoyed the two dinners we had there. One being kuay chap in chinatown with roasted pork and other pig parts. (Lol! I'm a carnivore, so sue me!) The second one being a seafood dinner which was diiirt cheap! Sharksfin, prawns, crab, crab with vermicelli, a vegetable dish (don't ask me what it was, I wouldn't know since I didn't eat it), and bird's nest for desert. Drooling yet? The 4 of us only paid S$45+ for the meal! And it was good too, not substandard at all.

Overall, I'd rate the trip a 6/10 and I just wished we could take a better plan the next time we fly. SQ maybe? =P

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It is not you who deserted me, but I who have forsaken you.